Sisterhood of Angel Mama’s Magazine | Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Edition October 2021

Lost My Sweet Baby Girl To COVID

Written & Photo by Shelby Bunnell

August 23, 2021 I felt like I was having Braxton Hicks, but little did I know they were contractions. Some of them were far apart and some of them were close together so I had no clue what was happening. This is my third child, I had a miscarriage with my first baby for unknown causes and had to have an emergency c section with my son. Then sadly, my sweet daughter Cora was stillborn. When I got to the hospital they couldn’t find a heartbeat or movement with Cora. 

I had contracted COVID from my husband who was vaccinated, and it was pretty bad so my doctor told me to self quarantine at home. I wish the doctor would of sent me to the ER to check on my baby or did something other than letting my baby slowly die inside me. I felt defeated. I felt like they didn’t even care. Another OBGYN that made me feel like I couldn’t trust them. 

I was grateful for Dr. Dempsey for giving me the trust I needed, I just wish he was my doctor at the beginning of my pregnancy because he was originally who I wanted to care and deliver my baby. After a few days, six days to be exact my husband and I got the final report from the doctor on my placenta. My placenta was small and covered with blood clots and I had tested positive for COVID. To any mama that has COVID please get checked out. 

I was scared and thought I had done something wrong. It has been a week and one day from losing my beautiful baby girl and I still kick myself. I wish COVID was not a thing. Medical professionals says that COVID is high risk to pregnant women but it is way more than that. Mamas, make sure you’re staying monitored and your baby is okay until you test negative for COVID. There are antibiotics and steroids that can help you and your unborn baby. Please be aware so you don’t have to live through the heartache that I am having to live through at this moment. Losing a child is a pain I never would want a mama to endure. It is painful and I wish it never existed. 

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