Sisterhood of Angel Mama’s Magazine Issue 01 | January 2020
Healing Starts With Me
Written & Photo by Marquila Turner
It’s very hard to think positive when you lost a baby(ies). I didn’t think positive when my sons Eric Jr and Cameron died. I was depressed and very angry until I looked at myself in the mirror and said to myself “This is not you Quila”. Then I tried keeping myself busy so I didn’t have think about it but that only made it worse. I knew the only way through is GOD. I started praying, going back going to church and reading the Bible and I felt better. I started blogging, journaling, exercising and surrounding myself with people who helped me smile again. I still have moments when I’m not ok but I allow myself to feel what I feel. I moving on but my sons are still with me.
They are not replaceable. My sons memory lives with me, my daughter and my nonprofit organization Quila’s Angels Inc and the Sisterhood of Angel Mama’s.
Healing starts with you! You have a CHOICE each and every day to be happy, to smile, to think positive over negative and to HEAL. You are in control of your thoughts and your feelings.
Healing isn’t always easy, but it always worth it.