Sisterhood of Angel Mama’s Magazine | Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Edition October 2022
The Lost of My Child
Written & Photo by Parbathe Lalbeharry
On the morning of Sunday March 25th what seemed like any other day, cooking lunch seemed like usual but during that day as I lay on my sofa my back aches with pain as I was accustom to talking to my baby and rubbing my tummy, I felt no movement. To my feeling my baby was sleeping thou I said, “mama why are you not moving much.” I spent the day a bit tired and went to bed around 8pm to be awaken at around 10pm at night with blood and a sharp contraction pain. Things didn’t feel right, I prayed to God, “not again Lord I had gone so far before I had 3 miscarriages this was the longest I had gone so far.”
I was rush to MT Hope Women’s Hospital to be told no fetal heartbeat . I was crushed how could God take her away from me I cried bitterly in pain and shouted out, “Why ! Why Me!” How was I going to tell my only 10 year old daughter I could not bring her sister home. At 8 months pregnant ever mother dreams of their child’s future creeping , saying their first words seeing her go to school, so much high hopes I had for her as I held her soft body next to mine I wish to this day she was with me. I joined a group soon after helping mothers like myself deal with this situation and let them know that they are not alone in this world. What keeps me going is I pray that one day I will meet my child and hold her in my arms again.