My name is Kacey. I have 4 wonderful children from a previous marriage. When my current husband and I decided we wanted to have a baby, I was so excited since my youngest was 8 at the time. I got pregnant in August 2017 all my ultrasounds baby looked good and healthy, blood work showed healthy too. On my check up in December at 17 weeks I had a very uncomfortable feeling something was wrong, my husband kept reassuring me it was just nerves and everything would be fine. Then the doctor couldn’t find a heartbeat. Ultrasound confirmed my baby had passed away 2 weeks before. I delivered him in the hospital the next day by induction. We were devastated.
We got pregnant again in March 2018, I was closely watched by my OB, everything was perfect, our baby was healthy and we even got to do a gender reveal at 12 weeks because of blood tests. We were having another boy! Then at 15 weeks, I couldn’t find a heartbeat on my home Doppler. (I had been hearing his heartbeat every day.) I went to the ER and it was confirmed he had passed away. I delivered him the next day by induction. They found a very rare aggressive cancer on my cervix, they don’t believe this is why I lost my sons but I believe God had a reason and it was to save my life. I miss my boys so much and I keep their ashes close to my bed. I had to have a full hysterectomy so I now have an emptiness I can never fill.